AYAH 💞

Im so sad 😭 I dont know how to dscrbe my feeling right now. My expectations always lead to disappointment.My father told me once not to expect anything from anybody so I wouldn't be disappointed.If somebody was nice and did nice things for me, I should be overjoyed, but I shouldn't go through life expecting it, which is very good advice.😌I miss you ayah 😭The most terrible thing about missing you is that I miss you more when I try to stop missing you. I love hugging you but I hate letting go. I love saying hello but I hate saying goodbye. I love watching you come towards me but I hate watching you walk away. 😭 my nights have become sleepless and my days have become sleepy since you have gone away ayah . It hurts to think that you are not here anymore. Although I can’t help but smile with tears in my eyes to think of how we cherished each and every moment of our lives together when you were alive. Ayah when I think of you, tears roll down my cheeks unbidden, just the way it rains in Machang Bubok 😂😭😭. No one can replace you ayah . You give me everything i wnt . Even its hard to get it , but u ll find the way to make it for me . Now , everything is different :( I'm not happy like before anymore . I ll try my best to buktikan dekat ayah I ll berjaya mcm pemintaan ayah sebelum ni . Im redha tht u go away but im just missing you and sad when no one can understnd me like u did . 😭


Ayah , 

Whenever I asked for a new toy

You always got me one

If I was down and depressed

You made me have fun

Whenever I wanted to go out

You were always game

If mom scolded me

You always took the blame

Whenever I did something wrong

You made me set it right

Without yelling at me

Or getting into a nasty fight

For every little generosity

You’ve shown me along the way

I will be forever grateful to you

Until my dying day

Thanks ayah . ❤

As I grow older, no matter whose love gives me happiness – I will always be my daddy’s little princess. I miss you ayah. Forever in  my mind . Semoga ayah tenang disana . 😚

SOMEONE :)

Hey ! I'm feel so grateful cause I have met you . You're so kind , cool , suka buat lawak n bla bla bla . To me, you are so so so so so so so so so so so so so perfect.. Talking to you, laughing with you, being with you, changes my whole mood . You’re the type that I don’t wanna lose . You have no idea how much l like you. How much you make me smile, how much l love talking to you, or how much l wish you were be mine . You give me so many reasons to smile. A handsome face is NOTHING with an ugly personality . If I told you how much you mean to me, I'd never get the chance to finish . I really like you . A lot . I know sometimes I mess up and do things that make it seem like I don't care but trust me, you're my world . Everything reminds me of you . When we first chat , I had no idea you’d become this important to me. InsyaAllah  I'll never gave up on you, so don't give up on me. i hope you never comfort me with a lies . Big or small, lies are lies.  by the way , I like when you smile, it's cute.
HAHAHAHAHAH xD I don't need anyone else as long as I got you ..  

24 AUGUST 2014 :)

Assalamualaikum ! heyy ^^ okay , this is my new first post in my blog . Yang lama dah delete kesemuanya :) Actually , today is 24 August 2014 . I don't know why dekat google still 23 August .But in fact today is 24 August . My date with a person that I love the most ^^ He was my first love. No replacement will be like him. He is a good, caring, honest, understanding, romantic.  I've split up with him 11 months  after 1 year 2 months we together . maybe I do not have a 'jodoh' to be with him . I'm pleased. Ini dinamakan ketentuan Allah :) so , I accept it with my open heart . Now, he is happy with someone else ^^ I'm happy for him too :) Pretending to be happy is not that hard when it's already a habit.   I hope he will always be happy with whoever  he be with . It's so hard to forget someone who gave me so much to remember but I've forgotten him , but sorry I cant forget the memories with him . That's all I can express / write, let the rest  stored in my heart . At the end of the day, I need to let it go the past. Whatever happened back then, for sure I don't hold grudges in my heart . People will changed, memories won't.  I dont want to talk much . Sometimes we just waste too much time to think about someone that doesn't think about us for a second and it's too bad .  Just it , thanks :)