AYAH 💞

Im so sad 😭 I dont know how to dscrbe my feeling right now. My expectations always lead to disappointment.My father told me once not to expect anything from anybody so I wouldn't be disappointed.If somebody was nice and did nice things for me, I should be overjoyed, but I shouldn't go through life expecting it, which is very good advice.😌I miss you ayah 😭The most terrible thing about missing you is that I miss you more when I try to stop missing you. I love hugging you but I hate letting go. I love saying hello but I hate saying goodbye. I love watching you come towards me but I hate watching you walk away. 😭 my nights have become sleepless and my days have become sleepy since you have gone away ayah . It hurts to think that you are not here anymore. Although I can’t help but smile with tears in my eyes to think of how we cherished each and every moment of our lives together when you were alive. Ayah when I think of you, tears roll down my cheeks unbidden, just the way it rains in Machang Bubok 😂😭😭. No one can replace you ayah . You give me everything i wnt . Even its hard to get it , but u ll find the way to make it for me . Now , everything is different :( I'm not happy like before anymore . I ll try my best to buktikan dekat ayah I ll berjaya mcm pemintaan ayah sebelum ni . Im redha tht u go away but im just missing you and sad when no one can understnd me like u did . 😭


Ayah , 

Whenever I asked for a new toy

You always got me one

If I was down and depressed

You made me have fun

Whenever I wanted to go out

You were always game

If mom scolded me

You always took the blame

Whenever I did something wrong

You made me set it right

Without yelling at me

Or getting into a nasty fight

For every little generosity

You’ve shown me along the way

I will be forever grateful to you

Until my dying day

Thanks ayah . ❤

As I grow older, no matter whose love gives me happiness – I will always be my daddy’s little princess. I miss you ayah. Forever in  my mind . Semoga ayah tenang disana . 😚